flaws

Currently just another Friday after a barrage of assignments throughout the week. Too tired to even find a quote, maybe I’ll make my own today.

“Just keep going, only if you keep going will you be able to surpass your limit.”

-dramaqueensoph

So yeah, I’m pretty lazy right now because I have so much to get done and definitely not enough time. Going to try to relax for a bit, but meanwhile, here is a completely irrelevant post. I think it’s important to point out one’s flaws because if you don’t see them, then you can’t improve upon them.

I didn’t really think about my flaws until college because recently I’ve been regretting a lot of things I’ve been doing.

-brags too much (I feel like I got better at writing, but actually it was just in comparison to my 8th-grade self …)
-talks too loud (especially during times I shouldn’t be)
-forgetful
-wishy-washy (can’t really decide)
-makes things more dramatic/awkward than they need to be
-bad mindset sometimes
-doesn’t think much before talking, and regrets a lot afterwards
-don’t know when the line is crossed

good aspects
-relatively good at judging others
-kind, mannerly
-modest
-honest (relatively)
-funny (at least, to myself)
good aspects of myself from others:
-energetic
-bubbly
-hardworking
-pragmatic
-cooperative
-logical
-optimistic

I was kind of surprised that the few people I asked pointed out that I was enthusiastic when I feel very dead in college. It makes me feel happy that I can possibly make others feel energized as well.

I feel like I’ve compiled this list partially out of embarrassment and partially out of the need to improve on the aspects that aren’t positive. I feel like in college I’ve regretted a lot of things that have happened, but I haven’t had the time to regret upon those enough.

 

Here’s another quote relating to the music I’m currently listening to!

“Let’s not get sick” -Zion.T

Currently listening to Zion.T to study and it’s pretty efficient! I love his music, how it’s laid back, but lets the listener bop to the beat at the same time.

xoxo,

dramaqueensoph

 

Coming Off Across As

Do you ever feel like you come across as someone different than you imagine yourself to be?

To hide my insecurities about how smart everyone is and how I need a ton of help from others just to do something, I feel like I push opportunities away. I know I just need to study and work hard, but that’s all I’m doing right now and nothing is working out for me. I don’t know if I should just ignore the situation or address it, but I feel like my life is simply too busy to sort anything out at the moment. I guess I never really realized how much of a mess my life was in until in physics I just started crying for no reason. I don’t know how my life got to this point in only one short week, but I tried to get involved on campus, and my course load has gotten much more difficult. I feel like everyone around me is doing fine and getting all their stuff done, while I’m just sitting here, suffering and not knowing what to do.

I feel like life is a test, a test of whether you can stand the challenges put up against you and survive. In a drama I watched in the past, Another Oh Hae-young, the quote “if you survive, you win,” was said by the male lead. Although this quote isn’t an ultimatum, I think it is very true when it comes to situations that are so hard and confusing that make you mentally lost.

xoxo,

dramaqueensoph