On: Leading Class

I never thought I would ever not enjoy teaching. As a child, I always thought teaching was easy. I loved to teach my sister and pretend-play “teacher”.

I guess it has to do with my life experiences and also my current situation. I feel like my attitude towards children is just not natural and for some reason, I hate to think about what they may be thinking about me deep inside. To people my age, it feels different. I feel like it’s easier for me to talk to people. Even though I get easily irritated at home, for some reason it’s hard to break out of my habit of not talking to people that I get annoyed at (aka the students). So when I do end up having to talk to them it just gets awkward and I get annoyed at myself. I’m annoyed that I even get annoyed because I feel like this shouldn’t even happen in the first place. However, they’re pretty nice and quiet right now so I guess it’s not too bad. I tried to put their thoughts into perspective and I guess that’s where a lot of things just went wrong.

However, they’re pretty nice and quiet right now so I guess it’s not too bad. I tried to put their thoughts into perspective and I guess that’s where a lot of things just went wrong. I didn’t want to assign them a lot of work, because if I was a student there I wouldn’t want a lot of work either. But them not having work only looks bad on me and not them and in the end, I would be the one that loses when they get out of control.

The best thing to do is just do the best I can for now. 🙂

xoxo,

dramaqueensoph

What’s in my pencil case? Writing utensil favorites

I’m always on the hunt for new and better writing utensils because writing makes up 80% of my life. I write pretty lightly on paper so I like thinner pens that come out well with little pressure.

Here is a list of the items in my pencil case:

  1. Muji Capped Gel-Ink Ballpoint Pens 0.38mm: These make up the bulk of my pen collection. I started off with a set of 9 colors (red, hot pink, pink, light green, turquoise, orange, blue, light blue, black), but I found myself reaching for the blue pen the most when taking notes, so I bought a set of blue Muji pens from Amazon. I like how they glide on the paper easily and its simplistic design is aesthetic and easy to carry around. I have also accidentally left one of my pens uncapped for a night and it was working perfectly fine afterward. I want to try out other Muji products in the future and I’m currently interested in the 3 color ballpoint pen.
  2. Other pens: BIC 4-color pen 0.7mm: I got this pen from a program I taught at over the summer and it was easy for me to grade in different colors. I actually put this pen in a compartment in my backpack, for assessability. Random university black ink pen 0.7mm: I like using this one for random writing and taking quick notes.
  3. Highlighters: For highlighters, I don’t really have a preference. I currently have a yellow Papermate intro and a blue Staples highlighter in my pencil case. I tend to like thinner highlighters as they don’t take up much space. I also like highlighters that make an assuring sound when they close because I’m so afraid that they’ll dry out. My favorite highlighter colors are yellow and blue, but I always make sure to have at least a yellow highlighter in my pencil case because it really makes a section of your notes stand out.
  4. Pencils: I have three types of pencils in my pencil case. My favorite are the BIC #2 0.5mm pencils. I like the gray color and the small size of the pencil, and how thin it writes. I also have a Pentel Wow! 0.5mm pencil that I won from a birthday party many years ago. Even though it is a bit bulky, I like the grip on this one. The last type of pencil I have in my case is a plain-old Papermate Sharpwriter #2 0.7mm pencil. I like to use it when I’m jotting something down quickly, because it feels nice in your hand and the eraser works great. I also like the design of this pencil, it looks like a wooden pencil.
  5. Eraser: I used to enjoy using the Pentel Hi-Polymer erasers because they erased so nicely. But for some reason, I keep losing erasers and I decided to go with a bright orange Whataburger eraser. It does its job and catches the eyes easily.
  6. Miscellaneous: Purple Surgical Marker: I recieved this from my sister, who volunteered at a hospital, and I just loved the color, so I kept it. Burt’s Bees mango lip balm: for when my lips feel dry, which is all the time. Micro SD adapter: to transfer phone photos to my computer quickly.

 

xoxo,

dramaqueensoph

Produce 101 Season 2, Wanna One

Because I am currently obsessed with this show and slightly sad that Wanna One won’t be releasing music until August, here is my super personal Wanna One bias list! I wasn’t intending on posting this here (as I did these things often with EXO) until one of my friends asked if I had written this for a blog post and I had realized that I hadn’t posted here in a while. I was currently watching episode 7 of the show, where they are continuing the position evaluation songs. I had followed one person on this show, but recently decided to rewatch the whole show so that I could get all the inside jokes and learn how the Wanna One members got to where they are. I did not forgot about my monthly music favorites post either, currently compiling one for the entire summer.

As background, Produce 101 is a show on Mnet where 101 K-pop idol trainees go on the show and are voted on by the general public (known on the show as “national producers”) to create the top 11, who form a temporary group after the end of the show.

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Bias list rearrangement after watching produce 101 episode 3
1. Jaehwan – must I even say something? Perf vocals, visuals, funny, cute, and hardworking!! Jaehwan please debut with Sewoon or something.
2. Daniel – I didn’t really get the Daniel hype at first (when I wasn’t interested in produce 101), but after I started watching I totally understand. Daniel is so thoughtful and caring, even though he is skilled.
3. Sungwoo – he just caught my attention with his good looks and bright personality! He seems fun to be around and close to Jaehwan. And also Daniel seems close to Jaehwan too, although Daniel is basically friends with everyone.
4. Woojin – I like that he’s talented and works hard. He can’t get along with the others as well so I feel bad for him too. It was cute to see his ugly past lol. But the reason why he is so high is because when he said “are you kidding me” in his accent it was so cute loll.
5. Sungwoon – THIS GUY IS GOLD. He knows his stuff. He knows what has to be done in a situation (aka bringing Daehwi down a notch). He also sang with Jaehwan in Sonagi and he was really good. He also looks good in glasses.
6. Jihoon – his face is so cute.
7. Jinyoung – I felt bad for him because he was in F after reevaluation, but his face is so small omg! I hope he does well in the future.
8. Guanlin – I can sort of relate to this kid. He doesn’t know Korean as well and he’s not as talented, but his Korean is not bad for someone who’s only been in Korea for 6 months!
9. Jisung – expression king omg. The last minute decision to make him center in Boy in Luv along with his weird facial expressions during the first evaluations gave him a lasting impression. Also he is the same age as Woohyun from Infinite, which makes me a little sad, but he can do it!!
10. Minhyun – I actually don’t dislike him as much as before. He chose Jaehwan to be on his Sorry Sorry team, which was a good choice, obviously. He seems earnest and nice and is pretty okay well around, but nothing in particular stands out.
—–WALL——
11. Daehwi – he is so selfish and keeps wanting for the center!!! So annoyed…at least Sungwoon spoke up about it (during Boy in Luv stage). And happy that Daehwi made Wanna One instead of Samuel I guess. 🙂

 

xoxo,

dramaqueensoph

Produce 101 Season 2

Who knew that I would be watching this show? I first watched the “Pick Me” of this season and was immediately turned off by it. All the guys in the video seemed similar to me and I couldn’t really see the difference in personality for each person. It just seemed a bit contrived to me. It was not until I had started watching the cover “Downpour” by IOI did I discover the world of Produce Season 2. I was immediately drawn towards Kim Jae-hwan, the main vocalist. However, as soon as I saw that he was safely in the top 11, I stopped worrying about his position.

Yesterday, I saw that Jin-hwan was rank 13 and got worried. I started watching all the Jae-hwan videos on the history of the web. I don’t know why, but I just started getting more attached and wanted him to win more badly. I feel like I haven’t been able to gauge the personality and backstory of a lot of the people on the show this season; it might be because I watched the show less closely this time around. His voice is so great that it would be such a waste to let him. I really want Jae-hwan to make it because not only does he have an amazing voice and amazing talent, he has been training for five years and is currently an independent trainee.

xoxo,

dramaqueensoph

Currently Watching: My Father is Strange 아버지가 ě´ěƒí•´

I wanted to start a “currently watching” series, one, because I almost never finish dramas these days, and two, because I feel like there isn’t enough drama content on here these days. So I’m currently on episode 27 of the weekend My Father is Strange. I think it’s supposed to be 50 episodes, so there is still a long way to go, but it’s surprisingly really good still. I started it during finals week and episodes are still airing. Not going to lie, it does get dull and around episodes 15-20, there are one or two subplots that watchers may gravitate too, so it’s difficult to try to sit through it all. However, watching the episodes as they come out makes it much easier to be on top of it, and you grow attached to all the characters and their conflicts. It’s very much a family-based story, so I feel like certain types of people would gravitate to different characters more than others. In my case, I liked the oldest sister’s subplot compared to the middle sister, parents, and older brother plots because I could relate to her attitude and problems more. But at this point, everyone’s problems are my problems now, and I feel like I’m a part of this super big, dysfunctional family. Currently, I’m only watching this one and Suspicious Partner, but the latter is getting really cheesy and slow, so I’m procrastinating on that one. I guess I should look for another one to watch soon.

I really want to watch Lookout, but it’s a really long drama, so that’s deterring me at the moment, maybe I’ll start it if I get really bored. Also excited for Age of Youth 2 because I really liked the original, and from what I’ve read so far, the story revolves around the same girls. The only thing I’m not too excited about is that Onew is set to be Han Seung-yeon’s boyfriend. A new Nam Joo-hyuk drama (Bride of the Water God 2017) is also coming out next month, which I’m super excited about. I really liked Nam Joo-hyuk ever since I saw him in School 2015, and I’m glad he’s being well-received because I really enjoy his acting.

xoxo,

dramaqueensoph

Grateful

You don’t realize what you have until you lose it, people always told me. But in a way, I never quite believed that. Every happy moment as a sad story to it. But I realized that even the most mundane thing–like being healthy–is so important to be grateful for.

Yesterday, I was walking outside to a building I was to work at. It was about a 15-minute walk, but I wasn’t feeling well, not to mention it was sweltering hot outside. I started to sweat a lot and feel dizzy, but I kept going. After a while though, I felt weak and thought I couldn’t breathe anymore. I was so scared I was going to pass out on the street, but I gathered the strength and perseverance I had learned from swimming and kept going on. When I miraculously arrived at the building on the seventh floor, I rushed to the bathroom, but I was too weak to support myself and kept bobbing up and down. At that moment I realized something as I was reading an ad on the bathroom door for a marathon training. I realized that some people must feel like this all the time, but unlike me, they probably never knew what it felt like to run around like everyone else. I finally went to my desk and put my drenched head down on my arm. I don’t ever want to forget this moment because it makes me grateful for what I have, and for all the pains I will never even begin to understand.

xoxo,

dramaqueensoph

Sleeping

I don’t know if I ever mentioned this, but ever since I was little, I was afraid of sleeping. Most people look to nighttime as a time of respite, but I fear it. I don’t even know what I fear, and because I’m afraid, I grow sad as the day goes along. Of course, I’m not a morning person either. I know this sounds ironic. But even I don’t know what the cause of this fear stems from. I always tell people that I saw a video of a child not waking up the next day, but I don’t think that’s quite it. I don’t think I’m going to not wake up the next day, even though I used to. I just get sad.

Even when I think of it, it seems ridiculous, but it truly makes me grateful for my college days. In college, I’m too tired to think, nevermind be afraid. I guess that’s one thing that I gain, despite the lack of sleep.

Currently watching the Chinese drama Surgeons; the plot is really well written and the actors really suit the characters.

xoxo,

dramaqueensoph

Laughing

Never posted this, but I thought that know that school has come to an end, it’s better now than never:

I’m not sure if it’s because I’ve grown to laugh less in college, but when I laugh in college, I tend to remember it more. I guess I can be described as someone who looks for the fun aspect of life, even when it might not seem acceptable.

But I wanted to tell a story of what has been making me laugh recently. I’ve always, and still am, been intimidated by the people in my classes. Somehow everyone seems so be grasping material much faster than I, so I dread having to go to the discussion class where we have to work with others to finish a problem set. In this class, however, I got paired with a partner that, I discovered after the first problem set, was exponentially smarter than I could ever be. I dreaded every class, where I would be completely roasted by my one partner (the other person in the group stopped coming after the first time) by my not understanding of the subject. My lone partner, whom I’ve dubbed “tree”, figures problems out by looking at the question long enough. “How?” is the only question that goes through my head.

Today, tree dropped his graded homework paper on the floor and said “oh noo”, and for some reason, I laughed. It wasn’t the usual, annoying and loud laugh I conjure, but a quiet and calm laugh. I laughed because I was so shocked that someone so calm and so smart could have done something so simply wrong. And I, a person who always talked in a low voice in discussion groups, finally could relate, even if it was a little, to a person who was, seemingly, so different.

xoxo,

dramaqueensoph

Summer Slump and Dramas

I feel like this happens not only when summer comes, but with any school break. I think this has been happening recently with me since college. Because I am being exerted to my limits in college, I feel like when, all of a sudden, I’m not obligated to go anything anymore, that I can just lay on my bed until 3pm and lounge around until I feel hungry. This sounds like such an ideal lifestyle–but honestly it makes you feel like crap. You’re perpetually hungry and tired and you don’t know what to do to not feel that way anymore.

One solution to this problem is to just squeeze out a little bit of time during your busy school/work life to find solutions to your problem (apply for a job, start a project, or sign up for a class), that way, when it really comes to that time, you’ll have something that you’ll have to do by then, but also get adequate rest.

I don’t know why, but television shows are always ten times better when you watch them during finals, or what you have other things on your plate. It creates this tension and makes you want to watch the next episode so much more. After the assignment or exam, I’m always less likely to continue watching for some reason. As you can guess, I did start a couple dramas during finals week because I was “bored”. As if.
I started with this new drama Ji Chang-wook is in (currently airing), called Suspicious Partner. If I watched this during any other time period, I think I would’ve definitely stopped after the first 15 minutes because the female lead was a bit obnoxious, but, for some reason, I kept watching. Because I was severely in need of more Ji Chang-wook (as only eight episodes of the drama were out during finals), I started watching another drama he was in, K2. I steered clear from this drama for a long time because I didn’t enjoy the female lead’s acting and thought that her role would be shallow, but I did end up watching a couple episodes of the drama before finals week ended, and after it did end, I returned to my senses.
However, in this time I also started a KBS weekend drama, My Father is Strange. It’s 50 episodes, so I would normally never attempt to even start it, but the cast looked quite promising, and I’ve fallen for characters that I wasn’t originally watching for, so it was quite a surprise. So far, only half the episodes have come out, but I don’t think I need to worry because the episodes are so long, and actually starting to drag out and get a little slow. My favorite character out of the entire family (it revolves around the life of one family) is Hye-jeong, a self-made lawyer who is cold, but pragmatic, and is the most successful out of her entire family. The rest of the family members struggle financially to find, and keep jobs. Where Hye-jeong’s struggle lies is that she meets her ex-boyfriend again after eight years. It doesn’t quite sound like a legitimate conflict, but trust me, it is.

Today is the day after we moved out of our freshman dorms. I never really get sad over leaving, because it just only means a new beginning, so it wasn’t too disappointing, but it was definitely a lot of effort carying everything and getting my life together. I had Melona today, and I’m about to go back to the appartment to go have some instant bibimbap!

bye!

xoxo,

dramaqueensoph

 

Really Really Need New Music Recommendations (April 2017)

So Winner released their double title tracks in the month of April. I was initially really excited, but then the hype left quickly when the beat wasn’t catchy enough for me. Their songs, Really Really and Fool were good, but I found the style not as unique as their debut album, which I guess it hard to live up to. Even so, I feel like Winner could have been much more successful if they didn’t delay their comebacks so much. In the beginning of the month, Taeyeon also released the final single in her My Voice album, titled Make Me Love You. Not super “in love” with the song, and the music video isn’t too great either. I feel like Taeyeon is slowly losing her touch with slow ballads, or maybe she’s been given too many mediocre songs with little impact. I feel like because of this, recently IU’s songs have gotten a lot of attention. I really get an artist vibe from her recently because of the investment she puts in all of her songs in the album. You can feel the internal struggle she feels as not only a celebrity, but a person, in every one of her songs, and they mesmerize you. Each song has its own character, but at the root of it is very much of a laid back, truly IU feel. In the K-pop industry today, I feel like there has been a lack of connection between the singer and the song. I know a lot of great singers in the world don’t write their own songs, but when they do, it has a greater impact on the listener, as we are able to further connect in the minds of the singers. At first I didn’t really like Night Letter or Only I Didn’t Know, but they slowly grew on me and I can feel IU’s sincerity in every line.

Not super impressed with the music this month, but IU will have to do for now. Next month is GD and TWICE, so I guess we’ll see how that goes.

Throwback song of the month: Sejeong’s Flower Road.

Until next time,

xoxo,

dramaqueensoph